Messenger
by Deborah Haggerty
You came and changed my cells.
You requested my attention.
I did not hear you.
You demanded my attention.
I heard you then.
They told me to fight you.
I said you were not my enemy.
You were my messenger.
I would not fight you.
I would try to understand the message.
I asked you why you came.
You said you needed me to forgive.
You said you needed me to let go.
I asked for help. I was given love.
I asked for hope. I was given joy.
I asked for courage. I was given this day.
You said that I must give to receive.
I gave my breasts.
I said goodbye to you.
You left me with an open heart.
I don't need you anymore.
Not in my body.
The message is in my heart.
In August of 2005, I was diagnosed with bilateral breast cancer. Intuitively, I was very aware that the treatment of my
dis-ease would need to be done on a much deeper and wider scope. Yes, my body needed to be treated yet, my healing needed to be done mentally, emotionally and spiritually as well. In this poem, I wanted to express this awareness and my understanding that the cancer was not something that I needed to 'do battle with' but it was something that I needed to listen to and find it's message and gift. I had to love my body and release what it didn't need anymore.
© 2006 Deborah Haggerty
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In August of 2005, I was diagnosed with bilateral breast cancer. Intuitively, I was very aware that the treatment of my dis-ease would need to be done on a much deeper and wider scope. Yes, my body needed to be treated yet, my healing needed to be done mentally, emotionally and spiritually as well.
For me, journaling and writing poetry have been a significant part of my healing. About a year ago, I discovered the medium of blogging. I have enjoyed the interaction and have met some wonderful and interesting people from all over the world. I have found a community to share with uninhibitedly, and in some ways, this community assists in my healing. I have not imposed any boundaries on my journal. It is a compilation of my own work as well as others work, including music and photography. If it moves me in some way, I find a place for it.
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